When the fire in me

Meets the ice in you

All that’s left are

The damp, bitter ashes.


Daily Prompt: Be the Change

Daily Prompt: Be the Change

Having a disability, which is very unknown to the general public, I would like to be the change and educate everyone about  this disease.  It is called Ataxia.  Everyone who sees me, or anyone else with the disease, would think we have either MS or have had a little bit too much to drink.  Let me explain, Ataxia is really a symptom of something else much greater happening in the body.  Ataxia is is a Latin term for irregular gait; hence, stumbling around like you’ve had too much to drink.   One can have this symptom from anything from a stroke to, in my case, a Hereditary Degenerating Cerebellum.  It began when I was born. I had a mutation in my DNA causing my body to produce a protein which attacks my cerebellum causing this degeneration. The cause is unknown and there is no medication for it, just diligence to my surroundings (like hanging onto banisters).  Granted, as we all age , our cerebellum shrinks in size anyway. Mine just happens to be shrinking or degenerating at a quicker rate.  So, I am 50 years old with the balance (or lack of) of a 85 year old. W hat is the most frustrating, are the judgments, snickers, or sideways glances I get because the public is uneducated about the disease. “I assure you I have not had too much to drink— it’s only ten thirty in the morning.  I am doing the best I can.”  These are the things I want to shout and more.  I have been told to walk with a cane, so people will know that I do, indeed, have a disability. But I adamantly refuse. Why rely on a crutch until I feel I have to???  There are  those with forms of Ataxia who are in wheelchairs and on walkers, and my heart goes out to them, but to look at them you know they have a disability   When you look at me, or anyone else, who might stumble or lose their balance, don’t be so quick to judge, snicker, or glance sideways at me.  Give the benefit of the doubt until you know all the facts and change your thinking.

Daily Prompt: Embrace the Ick

Daily Prompt: Embrace the Ick.


You are definitely my ‘ICK’. Even though you and I happened years ago. I still hold onto to the memory to remind me how far I’ve come.  I still remember your untruths and all the excuses you would conjure up. Now I relish and search for people of truth and integrity.  I remember the lows you brought me to and the ways I clung to you coattails. Now I never stoop and cling to my own coattails. You were a wolf in sheep’s clothing and I am glad I got away. I take my share of the responsibility for being so naive. You taught me the importance of having positive vibes in your life and that ‘your thoughts follow your actions.’  I “ICK” when my thoughts turn toward you, but I learned from my mistakes!  So thank you…………..


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Having had Stage I Breast Cancer three years ago, I chose to do a double mastectomy.  Later, I was confronted by a friend who was encountering the same diagnosis.  Her lump, like mine, was in the early stages.  Unlike, my situation, she was given the choice of having a mastectomy or a lumpectomy.  After weighing out her options, she chose the latter treatment.  She had no Breast Cancer history in her family and did the genetic BRAC test, which came back negative.  I did not tell her until after her procedure that, given her circumstances, I was so glad she chose to do the lumpectomy.  I would never recommend any of my friends to go through having  a double mastectomy unless they were faced at a dead end wall like me (having a family history of BC).  I know the choice is a personal one, but if you don’t have to go through it, why do it????

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Dear 70 year old,

Well, you made it through your teens, 20s, 30s, 40s, 50s, 60s, and here you are in your 70s! You have done a great job, baby. Especially with all the curve balls that have been thrown your way. I know you always said that you had to live and play the hand you were given. I just can’t believe how gracefully you have done it. I have never heard you complain.  I have never ever heard you ask, “WHY ME?” And never have I heard you be unkind to others. I just hope one day, I grow up to be as beautiful as you. on the inside and out!

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Dear 14 year old,

I just want to share with you some things that I have learned along this pah of life.  Some of them won’t mean much to you now, but hang on to these ideas.  1) Life isn’t always going to be easy. I’m not saying that it will always be hard, but just roll with the punches and go with the flow. Whatever adversity faces you, stare it in the face and never let it defeat you. 2) Remember that God is always there. 3) Family is important and your Parents will bend over backwards for you. Remember to always respect them. 4) It’s all right to ask for help. And 5) Be kind to strangers. You never know when you are going to need their kindness in return. Remember these things and they will carry you up and down those hills and valleys in life!

All my love,